#+TITLE: Thinking Clearly

Writing is the most powerful tool for thinking clearly that I know
of. [fn:1]

Writing things out wonderfully complements my cognitive
shortcomings:
- It allows me to work around the hard upper limit on the number of
things I can keep in my head at one time.
- It enables endless meta-cognition; enabling constant critique and
refinement.

At the same time, I'm not used to writing: I have countless pages of
notes, plans, half-baked pieces of communication for work; but it's
not a tool I intuitively reach for.

Words are hard. Editing is harder.

To that end, I'm aiming towards building a habit by
- writing every day, for the next 100 days[fn:2];
- at least for half an hour, without interruptions;
- mostly about programming, but I'll allow myself detours.

Obviously I won't be able to publish one article every day;
thoughtful writing takes time. Instead, I'll publish drafts

[fn:1] My experience with increasingly stronger doses of coffee --
bullet-proof or other variants, tea and matcha only suggests an
increase in speed, and not the quality or clarity of thought.

[fn:2] Yes, this is a #100daysofwriting challenge for
myself. I've never considered attempting 100 days of anything --
except perhaps programming or reading -- but a man can dream.

* Tentative Topics
This is a very optimistic list of what I would like to write about; I
expect to touch very few of these over the next 100 days.

** Deep dives into programming
to me professionally.
- A deep exploration of asyncio in Python, and other event loop
implementations in general.
- HTTP/3, Quic.
- GDB.
- Jupyter Internals.
- Observable programs
- Concepts in machine learning [fn:3]

[fn:3] I can already hear you groan, but it's something I would like
to build depth in, particularly for work. You should feel grateful
that I don't have yet another tutorial on Monads in this list.

** Tools for Programmers
I've spent a significant portion of my career building tools for
engineers; even when that isn't my primary goal I find it extremely
valuable to spend at least 10% of my time speeding up the work I'll
do.
- Emacs, themes, plugins, and extensions
- The Suckless toolkit, particularly dwm and st
- Building customizable tools

** My approach to software engineering
Explicitly writing out how I approach several aspects of Software
Engineering. Mainly to consciously review and refine what I do, to
become a better engineer, but also to share and get feedback.

These are things I do, and not necessarily things I'm good at:
any recommendations and approaches should be evaluated in that
context.

- Reviewing code
- Debugging problems
- Ramping up on a project
- Designing and structuring a program
- Designing and structuring a programming notebook
- Organizing and planning work
- Building feedback loops

** Books
The one aspect of my life I have managed to write about somewhat
consistently is the books I've read. The most valuable notes I've
collected are not notes on a single book, but collections of notes around
a single topic collected from many sources.
- Books on Programming Languages
- Books on Software Engineering
- Books on Visualization
- Books on Photography
- Books on Writing [fn:4]
- Books on Learning
- Books on Thinking
- Books I would like to read

[fn:4] Passing up opportunities to be meta is physically painful for
me.

** Retrospectives
- I'm close to completing a decade as a professional Software
Engineer, I probably know something worth writing about.
- Side projects -- past, current, and ideas for the future; these
might be closer to developer logs for a given project.
- Various attempts at building productivity systems, and things that
stuck -- and didn't.

* Review
** 28 days
I've managed to consistently keep writing every day for the past
month: it's a good time to take a look at what's working and what's
not.

As part of this project, I've "published" four notes (excluding this
one), and written a lot more on asyncio. Three of the notes have been on
relatively soft -- based on opinion and experience -- and one was an
attempt at re-explaining something valuable. I've also created my own
Python tracer on the side, which I hope to open source soon.

I've also captured several notes from books and other resources as an
attempt at syntopical reading: my very own wiki / zettelkasten /
simple hyperlinked web page. These give me hope towards building a
better knowledge-base for myself, as I engage with and write about

It's occasionally been a very exhausting experience, and rewarding
when I see readers engage with the contents and reach out to me. That
said, I started this exercise as a way to think more clearly, and I
can't say I've accomplished that.

Writing regularly has also made it somewhat smoother: words flow more
easily, even if I do need to constantly revise them to be
readable. I also have a somewhat reasonable workflow around writing
and publishing new notes.

Ideally I'd prefer to write about topics I have a hard time
understanding, and re-phrasing in my own words makes it more
accessible to me (see also: Feynman's methods of study), so those are
the topics I'd like to start focusing on after wrapping up the series
on asyncio.

** 60 days
I'm two-thirds of the way through, and I can't say I'm getting what
I'd hoped for out of writing every day: building the muscles is good,
but I'm not very satisfied with the quality of my output. Which, in
turn, becomes disappointing enough to make me less excited about
writing the next day, and so on with a somewhat negative cycle.

With around ~40 days to go I'm going to choose the notes I'd like to
see published explicitly:
- A cleaned up series on Asyncio, including a description on event
loops, as well as internals.
- Completed notes on A Random Walk, and In Place Permutations, with
fancy diagrams.
- Syntopical notes on books I've been reading; particularly
Introduction to Mathematics, Fooled by Randomness and How Not To Be
Wrong.
- Carefully edit, re-write, and clean-up my existing notes; a side
effect of writing every day is a lot of late-night typing in
delirium with all the mistakes imaginable.
- Write about debugger-based-tracing, and my new tracer once I can
open source it.
- Start building software from "No Ideas but In Things", and maintain
a developer's log that I can then publish as a post later.
- Redesign expLog: the current iteration has been consistently
maintained as an MVP, but the sloppiness in the website encourages
me to be just as sloppy with my writing.

I also need to have a little more clarity around what I want to
improve on: so far, I've been muddling between --
- Writing to build habits and muscles: Working on forming cohesive,
clear sentences, choosing the right words; building habits to write
out things.
- Writing to learn: writing to capture what I've learned in my
own words, as a mechanism to both strengthen my knowledge and
identify gaps.
- Writing to teach: writing something useful that can be grasped
comfortably by others; this requires one giant step forward from
simply writing to understand.
- Writing to think: taking and shaping an unformed idea through long
form writing; constantly refining and improving on it, and using
the extra available memory to observe my thoughts and fix flaws.

Looking at the origin of this post, I value writing to think of all
the types of writing I've been attempting; at the same time I've spent
most of my time meandering between the other three types of
writing. This also explains my general frustration with the quality of
results so far.

Editing posts aggressively, and perhaps introducing numbers (at the
very least, fermi approximations) to any opinion based posts should
help me here.

On the positive side, I've been finding a lot of value with my short
posts around specific parts of programming acting as a quick reference
that I know very well (because I wrote it). Particularly the post on
sys.settrace.

Finally, I have much more respect for people who write good, well
structured books: and I can easily understand why something like TAOCP
where every single exercise is meticulously crafted consumes decades
of work.

- 2020-05-16: Set up this post: brainstorming and listing out ideas to
- 2020-05-17: Started iterating on a post about asyncio, figuring out
the outline and how to approach it, both to learn and to write.
- 2020-05-18: Updated the post on asyncio. I finally understand how
asyncio.sleep works!
- 2020-05-19: Dug deeper into the event loop implementation in asyncio, reaching
and stracing epoll. Also submitted a typo fix to cpython.
- 2020-05-20: Explained where the ioctl calls were coming from (hint:
- 2020-05-21: Started a new parallel article about exploring the Linux
Kernel, to allow me to dig into epoll. Set up bcc.
- 2020-05-22: Dug into the disassembly of the python program, and
briefly documented what I found.
- 2020-05-23: Took a break and wrote about my workflow for planning.
- 2020-05-24: Forked a new note about setting up and using python-gdb
to explore python execution.
motivation to start on this series of notes.
- 2020-05-26: My copy of The Art of Science and Engineering
arrived. Taking notes chapter by chapter to take a break from
programming after work.
- 2020-05-27: I started writing about how I approach debugging and
realized that I have a lot to say. I should be able to publish this soon.
- 2020-05-28: Completed a first draft of the post on debugging; I
think I have the broader pieces in place but there's still a lot to do.
- 2020-05-29: Revising, editing and tweaking the post on debugging.
- 2020-05-30: Revised and edited the post on debugging, created a
diagram and added it to the index.
- 2020-05-31: Wrote about David Sedaris's book. Worked on asyncio
tracing, which I'll write about in the future.
- 2020-06-01: Writing for myself today; about what's going on in the
world and my place in it.
- 2020-06-02: Added a small section to the note on asyncio with
the output of my tracer on the minimal async example.
- 2020-06-03: Spent quite a bit of time scratching my head at the
differences between async generators and coroutines.
- 2020-06-04: Read another chapter of The Art of Doing Science and
Engineering and added to my notes.
- 2020-06-05:  For some reason I couldn't stop thinking about learning
to use tools, so it seemed appropriate to write about it.
- 2020-06-06:  Edited and published my heuristics for learning to use
tools.
- 2020-06-07: Back to asyncio tracing: explored how to connect async
- 2020-06-08: Slowly working through tracing python code, and
intercepting task creation to connect it to execution.
- 2020-06-09: Learned and briefly described the power of
sys.settrace. Wrote a summary of Systemantics.
- 2020-06-10: Split out a new note on sys.settrace.
- 2020-06-11: Filled in the new note on sys.settrace, and
significantly improved my tracing code as I learned more about it.
- 2020-06-12: Continued iterating on =sys.settrace= to add examples; I
still need to reorganize the content for readability.
- 2020-06-13: Published the note on =sys.settrace=. Added brief notes
from books on writing.
- 2020-06-14: Started reviewing this exercise, and my results with it
so far.
- 2020-06-15: Wrapped up the 4 weeks review. Also dug into coroutine
creation without actively writing about it.
- 2020-06-16: Greatly improved my understanding of generators,
coroutines, async generators, etc. Added an example to terms.
- 2020-06-17: Started writing about event loops in general.
- 2020-06-18: Doing a private retrospective around how I have created
-- and would like to create value at work.
- 2020-06-19: Read another chapter of Hamming and took brief notes.
- 2020-06-20: Wrote a little bit more about event loops. Still
struggling with organizing my notes on asyncio.
- 2020-06-21: I wanted to observe on-cpu time for python code as part
of my tracer, and dove into ftrace to figure it out.
- 2020-06-22: Simulated a random walk.
- 2020-06-23: Continued iterating on the post on a random walk,
realizing I've forgotten a lot of math.
- 2020-06-24: Added an analytical solutionto determine the root mean
square distance, but struggling a little with latex.
- 2020-06-25: Learned some mathjax and fixed up the solution,
iterating on the graphs.
- 2020-06-26: A few brief notes on books on mathematical thinking that
- 2020-06-27: Some personal notes on the projects I've been working
on, why I've been working on them; and others I should start.
- 2020-06-28: Expanded on coroutines and functions a little
bit. Stumbled across PEP 3156.
- 2020-06-29: Added brief notes from PEP 3156; I wish I'd read this
much earlier.
- 2020-06-30: Started sketching out what a coherent series of posts on
asyncio should look like, extracted from the pile of notes I've accumulated.
- 2020-07-01: Brief addition to my notes on mathematical thinking.
- 2020-07-02: Added a few more notes from the second chapter on
mathematical thinking.
- 2020-07-03: Continued studying and summarizing introduction to
mathematical thinking.
- 2020-07-04: Worked on a README for my python tracer: panopticon.
- 2020-07-05: Started another note on asyncio: on the invisible scheduler.
- 2020-07-06: Continued iterating on the scheduler and getting fairly
- 2020-07-07: Wrote a brief description around how I use tmux.
- 2020-07-08: Fleshed out my notes on how I use tmux. I should return
to my series on asyncio tomorrow, I can finally see the shape in my head.
- 2020-07-09: Sketched out an outline and structure for to make my
somewhat copious notes on asyncio coherent.
- 2020-07-10: Nerd-sniped myself while digging into ways to shuffle an
array in place while programming Rust. I'll write about it.
- 2020-07-11: Experimenting with another approach at describing event
loops, but not feeling very comfortable with it.
- 2020-07-12: "No Ideas but in Things", or how I'm now approaching
learning.
- 2020-07-13: Started documenting the rabbit hole I fell into a few
days ago. Coincidentally, I fell down another one starting the post.
- 2020-07-14: Continued filling in the different approaches to the
problem.
- 2020-07-15: Expanded on the rabbit hole; thinking about the best way
to make diagrams.
- 2020-07-16: Started adding notes from an old paper on permutations.
- 2020-07-17: 2 months in, updated this post with another review and
my plans for the last ~40 days of this exercise.
- 2020-07-18: I spent another hour writing about writing, this time in
private as I figure out the best way to make the most of my time.
- 2020-07-19: Continued writing about writing for thinking: what to
write, and contrasting alternatives like sketching, modeling, etc.
- 2020-07-20: Spent some time sketching out how I should re-write all
my notes on asyncio so that they can be understood by others.
- 2020-07-21: Self-review season; spent some time writing about what
I did well, and what I didn't as well as planning the next half.
- 2020-07-22: Spent some time looking forward and what I want the rest
of this year to look like professionally.
- 2020-07-23: Started writing about normalized cross entropy.
entropy looks, but fell asleep before spending a full 30 minutes.
- 2020-07-24: Wrote about my writing setup using Emacs.
- 2020-07-25: Updated my notes on books on thinking.
- 2020-07-26: Yet another attempt at writing about asyncio, this time
with a simpler structure in mind.
- 2020-07-27: Too tired, and I ended up missing a second day.
- 2020-07-28: And the bad streak continued, with 2 days in a row skipped.
- 2020-07-29: I finally completed all the formalities for opensourcing
my python tracer: Panopticon! Cleaned up the README.
- 2020-07-30: Wrote a lot for Panopticon, particularly a walk through
along with actually open sourcing it.
- 2020-07-31: Continued polishing the walk through before I share the
project more widely.
- 2020-08-01: Completed the introduction to Panopticon.
- 2020-08-02: Edited and tweaked the introduction to be more readable.
- 2020-08-03: Tweaked Panopticon's source, comments, etc.
- 2020-08-04: Wrote about the habits I want to develop over the next
several months.
- 2020-08-05: Back to my old friend, asyncio. I learned and wrote a
little about the Python parser and compiler today.
- 2020-08-06: I finally understood  and wrote about how coroutines get
distinguished from standard old functions.
- 2020-08-07: Fell asleep too soon again, I was feeling surprisingly
tired.
- 2020-08-08: Started writing a proposal for my office work that I'm